Chance and Circumstance

I'm trying to explain something in this that I'm not sure I know how to. I'm trying to tell you what the look meant. What paragraphs were sitting there behind my eyes, looking in yours. Explaining something so subtle, beautiful, perfect is a challenge I wasn't expecting. Somehow eclectic and Destiny have gone into business with each other.

As it always has been, I have trouble finding where to begin when it comes to you. When it comes to the way you've made me feel in the past. To the way you still do. It's like trying to explain a sunset. I'm sure some scientist could tell me why, but in the end, the words become meaningless because the depth is so much unspoken.

Seeing you brought out so much of the best of me. It reminded me, as I've been reminded recently, how little my emotions change year to year. The strongest of those never fade, as they haven't with you. I said that you still sparkled, as you always had. Maybe that explanation seems enough, but it doesn't begin to scratch the surface.

I believe that we are free to choose, to make our own decisions about how our lives proceed. Somewhere in those decisions though, a little guidance always seems to occur at the right times. If I were religious enough, I suppose I'd call it God. I tend to label it Destiny. That little nudge that hurts sometimes but always gets us where we should be going.

We met last night and something about the world clicked for me. Maybe it's too subtle to concern myself, but something is different now, better. I could blame simple chance or random circumstance. In the end, though, I know it is you. You in my life again. I hope I can make amends for the mistakes I made when I was younger. I hope you understand the depth that one single moment with you has affected me.