Monday, December 13, 2004

Fairy Tale Requiem

Suffering, Pain, loss, destruction, ya know...human nature. Loving, lusting, breaking, destroying, caring, amazing, ya know...human nature. I don't believe in believing any more. I believe truth is something we seek and never find. Trust is earned and broken, love is found and then lost. Human Nature? How about universally shitty. Where the hell is my fairy tale. I've altered my perceptions to find it. I've stayed awake for days looking. I've spent countless hours trying to puzzle out where my fairy tale could be.

It eludes me. It plays games with me, fooling me with oases of hope and love and trust, only to fade into the heat of the everyday humdrum like some mirage conjured soley to disappoint me. I wet my lips with what little water i have left and then press ever onward, hoping i find my fairy tale before i write my requiem.

Things i learned today:
- The only thing i'll ever hate about you is that part I can't have.
- Parallels draw people together.
- Blogging at 2am takes dedication, or maybe stupidity.
- Absence makes the heart grow fonder, but not always of the people it should.

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