Fire

That's exactly what it reminds me of. I sit here, tired from this week, tired just thinking about the weekend and the week ahead. I keep running today and yesterday through my head. I keep trying to remember everything I said, everything that was said to me. It's like fire, it burns and changes so quickly. I don't want to forget. And like fire, these few days have been beautiful but deadly. Deadly because if they had continued they would have killed me. Beautiful because every moment seemed filled with new life, new paths untraveled, new friends, new love. It makes me smile. It made me cry. It made me realize so much. Some of those realizations were more painful than i could describe here.

I found a friend in plain sight. She was right there all the time, but I hadn't had the opportunity to talk to her. I mean actually talk to her, not just chat in a social situation. It was exciting. I found i had things to say to her that I hadn't realized were there. Beauty, it seems, doesn't often know it's own appearance.

There's too much for tonight. I have so many other things I need to write here. I love it here. I feel so free and creative. I need this now, it's almost an addiction. I'll leave it unfinished for now...

Things I learned today:
- Just because he didn't show up, doesn't mean you aren't one of the most beautiful people i've ever met.
- If i could change one thing...but I can't.
- Honesty. It's not just a word, it's an adventure.
- You don't pursue happiness, it sneaks up on you and makes you feel comfortable.