Chill

It's at least 10 degrees colder in my basement than it is in the rest of the house. That could have something to do with no heating ducts opening into the basement area where my "living area" is. I may have to remedy that with a hammer and some scissors.

A lazy day. Yes, somehow i got some things accomplished. I finished my resume today. I also began and got most of my demo reel put together. I think it's pretty decent. I'm just hoping it's good enough to get me a job.

I got an email from Kat today. She's the one i went out with the other night for wings? Remember? It was very sweet and i wanted to thank her in a more "public" manor than just a reply email. It's nice sometimes, when there is such a chill in the air, to feel so warmed by conversation and coffee.

This evening, while the chill attempted to take away all feeling in my bones, I drove to Kaza's house to hang out. We watched the "Lost Boys". We ate chinese food. We hung out with mary jane for a while. We laughed and talked and took pictures with our camera phones. It was relaxing and simple and stress free. Somewhere during the evening i remembered that that's what life is like most of the time. It's been so long since things were just "normal", even if only for an evening. So it was good fun.

My hands are cold. My feet are cold. There is a chill in the air that feels very much like the manifest of my recent inner turmoil. Those things that make me shiver when i'm warm. This weather reminds me of those. I'm always praying for the warmth. My car runs better when it's warm. So does my life. Instead, I exhale and see my breath.

Things I learned today:
- Breaking the rules has it's advantages.
- My argument for summer is that it never hurts if it's too hot, it's just uncomfortable. But my hands, in this cold, hurt. That's not cool
- Chinese food is good. Gin is good. C-14 is good. Tonight, right now, it's all good.
- She smiled. I smiled. Easy.