Parallel

I realized something just now while on the phone with Libra. I haven't told her yet. Something pulled her away from the conversation. So i'm sitting here mulling. I had to get this out now, before it loses it's coherency.

This past year has been a roller coaster. Not some chincy church-parking-lot-fair roller coaster. I'm talking six flags quality super coaster. I just realized when it started and, going back over it, i'm shivering.

Late September of 2003. I got into a car accident that totalled my Buick. I was on my way to a family function. There were sweet potatoes in the back seat. That was the beginning of the change. Now, when i look back with this perfect view, i can see it all there.

After that, things seemed to be normal, but they weren't. I bought a new car (Jeep). I made a decision to deny my feelings about some very important matters. I made a decision to get married. I got laid off from my job. I couldn't afford my car anymore. (I still can't). I got a job at a place where I began to meet new people. I proposed, she said yes. I watched my money disappear over and over again. (I still do). I met Libra. I had realizations about my denials. I made a decision without realizing i had. It took me months to finally get it out. The world has slowly and painfully turned itself on it's head for an entire year.

I wish i still had my Buick.