Friday, January 21, 2005

Messy Duality

This week has been full of surprises. First, my car and the drama of having to depend on so many people for my rides to get all of this mess sorted out. Then spending a wonderful day with Miashell, only to find that my car was still not sorted. Finally, settling the car, I go to class, teach, and more surprises. I'm wide awake and dead tired.

I'm content and restless. I had a long long conversation with someone tonight and it was amazing. I've never been so glad to be sitting in a noisy bar with wings in front of me. The wings were delicious, the drink was decent and the company was perfect. We talked of all things, from relationships to family. From destiny to funerals. We covered a lot of ground. We laughed. It felt good to laugh so honestly.

I am unfocused and crystal clear. I had so many things i could have said, so many topics not covered. I hope I have the opportunity to talk to her again. Closing a bar and spending the next few hours at a diner made me feel like i was 21 again. I lost track of time. She's a fantastic distraction. Though she won't admit it, she's dangerous. She's mischevious and dangerous and fun and strong and confident. Late night conversation, late night inspiration.

I can hear sleep in the distance. I feel alive. I feel.

Things I learned today:
- I thought I'd had sex in strange places, but I was wrong.
- At 4:18AM it's hard to remember what you learned on the previous day.

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